I met this girl, who's ape shit crazy, all over the place, difficult as shit. She's also breathtaking, intriguing, loving, and has a perspective on the world that's brilliant. She has been one of the best and worst things to happen to me.
There are times you meet someone, and the shockwave of the moment you come together leaves a wake surrounging both of you. Things get toppled,uprooted, shaken apart. Though from that is born new life. I wasn't looking for something, I never am, never will be. She just showed up and was a walking inferno, which is why so many people either hate or love her, without really anyone in the middle. There are so many people who try to shine lights on themselves, but so few who actually glow. Though the problem with burning hot is that people tend to end up burnt.
It's cliche, all the sayings people use for Insagram captions to try and sound deep or thoughtful, but it really is true that I would rather have regrets of things I've done than regret things I never did. I don't wish I had stayed on the sidelines or did anything different. I'm always going to have the memory of running away for a crazy wedding with an incredible girl. Sometimes our best memories come with scars, but that's part of life. The reasons aren't important, and we may not even truly know all of them yet, but Bella and I didn't work. Ther might never have been a reason to think we would. But she's fucking awesome and so am I, and we're both a little fucked in the head. So keep your conspiracy theories to yourselves. Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial, for what it's worth, it was worth all the while. There's something unpredictable, but in the end... it may not always be right. It wasn't long, but I truly did have the time of my life.